Friday, November 6, 2009


Since the significant change to my diet these lately, someone in my office praised my efforts to stay healthy by eating oatmeal as my breakfast and dinner, on daily basis as one way of starting it with. She [I'd name her as Ms. Z] wondered at the same time the reason behind of the change and I simply answered it's because I really have to change my diet to improve my overall health. I may have sounded so ambitious but I decided that this time I'm gonna make it real.

Anyway, as one thing led to another, we ended up spilling our hearts out about one thing bothering me this lately. Mr. S kept telling me to let things just go but I would be burned in hell for lying that it doesn't mess my head even a bit.

It all started when I told Ms. Z that I looked kinda pregnant when I am so not and how it affects the whole image of me in other people eyes. It's really painful and disheartening when other people who doesn't even have nothing to do with you take a real good look at your overall image [that is from head to toe], not knowing about your capabilities/knowledge/skills and they can only see your bloated, plump round stomach and quickly assumed that you are pregnant by asking "How long have you been pregnant?"

I just don't know what to say - these people really got the nerve to mess with me when they don't even know me, let alone have anything to do with me - in terms of blood or whatsoever!

The main thing is it's not that I'm deeply affected about the childless state I'm in right now by comparing myself with the girls I know got married more later than me but already pregnant by now, but it's more about the shallowness that people tend to show to judge me by my outer appearance.

It is bad enough to talk about other person's personal, private matters like that, and these people just don't care about the loudness of their obnoxious voice that would simply attract other people to look at you and listen to their crap, so stupid sounding questions as if you owed your life to them!

Look - you are fatter, uglier, stupider than me so please, don't do that just because you wanna make yourself feeling so much better when the reality is you are so jealous of other people's lives [one of them is me].

It's gonna make you look even fatter [even if you think you're not that fat], even uglier and even more stupid than ever.

Than anyone else.

Trust me when I say that.

Just pray to God Almighty that one day you won't be dead because of your own ignorance and utter stupidity.

Believe me - you really should do that.

Thanks for the time & the reading...

Tuesday, November 3, 2009


I got this "painful" list from a friend.

Why "painful", you ask?

It's simply because knowing the truth about what you eat isn't always a sun-shiny day thing like that, you know.

Hate to admit that almost everything I love eating are all the things I shouldn't eat because it'd turn to "poison" to my body.

Now, now,... you might wanna pass the judgment about me being oh so naively believing the list 100%, right?

Wrong - I decided to do what I think, the best for me as a good start of living healthily.

Being a chubby, easy eater since childhood, I find it's really hard to believe my eyes reading the list. I can't eat almost everything I ever love! Potatoes, tomatoes, cheese, anchovies, bananas, papayas, mangoes, wheat flour - oh the list is just too painful to take!

*S I G H*

Never mind, I thought. This might be the best thing I could start with - knowing what to eat and what's not and try to comply to it, might help me in improving my health.

It might even answered all you people's curiosity over my faux baby bump!

Oh, if you happen to be wanting for the list, give me your email address. I just don't have the time nor will to paste it here.

Thanks for the time!


During the hiatus [so-called, lah!] of blogging, I noticed how plenty there were to be told about in this blog. Deciding whether or not it should be done in writing, is really something else :)

Let me start with a little story about courtesy.

Not gonna nag or something but, I really think that somehow some people just fail to see the importance of being courteous to others.

Is there anything wrong with you when you're heavily pregnant, been waiting for the elevator to reach the floor you've been standing on since like, 5-10 minutes ago and you felt like so tired because of your condition + the situations difficulties, that you'd simply just burst into the elevator because you know that people would give you way since you are oh so obviously heavily pregnant? I guess not.

But there is really something wrong when you failed to do even the simplest thing you can do - saying "Excuse me" or "Thank you" after people gave you way in or out, or even when you asked someone to push the button of the floor you are going to.

Now, now, you must be judging me, or shall I say, accusing me for being unnecessarily particular about these things?

I just don't get it, you know...

Oh, I'm the bad person now, huh?

I'm the bad person of highlighting the importance of being courteous and the lacking of it could cause the downfall of morality of our people since their own mothers just could care less about it?

Yeah, talking about taking the lead by example.

Anyone can do the Maths, dear...

I know, I myself isn't the best example in this matter. I myself have the tendency to curse in English when I'm angry or upset. If I can't do it verbally, I'd hear the words echoing in my head until the anger is over. It's always been that. I'm only human, okay? I still need to vent out my anger in some way. It must be a harmless one.

But I won't forget to say "Please,..." or "I'm so sorry but I really need your help,..." or "Thank you very much" whenever I need someone to help me, or when someone offer me something - a simple favor like holding the door for me.

Why you ask?

Because it's just, priceless. Ever heard anyone being charged monetarily for being courteous or grateful? I never heard of it.

And it's just being appreciative for other people's kindness. It means that we are aware of what other people are doing for us. If you are lucky, you would really notice things about people - if you keep living in your own Utopian world where everything is all about you, then don't be surprised if one day you'd lose your wallet or mobile phone because you are so busy living in your extremely beautifully perfect, non-existence world.

Besides, we show examples to our children or younger generations. In my case, I always had to watch my own actions and hold my tongue when my siblings are around, especially Adiba - she's a sponge! She absorbs quickly about almost everything bad, comparing to studying or when it comes to the positive things.

So don't be angry or raving mad when one day, your children whom you've carried for 9 months and which you faced the excruciating, unexplainable [but weirdly, quickly forgotten, hehehe...] labor pain just to bring them to this world, are rude, or ungrateful to you.

These are the reasons to believe that what goes around will come back around.

Usually, more painful than you know.

Thanks for the time!


My eyes are rolling in pure cynicism as I typed the title of this entry.

Hola everyone - thanks for being so unbelievably patient waiting for my updates [yeah right *eyes rolling again*]

I must blame my ahem, absence from blogging as usual these lately, from Ramadhan, to be exact. The thing is, the FB attractions were beyond beliefs. It's so damn powerful, I must have it everyday. It's my drug. My canned spinach. My daily dosage of anti-depressant. My must have dosage of caffeine. Or something like that.

It's just pretty awesome. And dangerous at the same time.

Okay, okay, back to the main reason of this entry.

Just saying hello again, and I really hope I can really pull this off this time around.

Though nothing beats the fun and the crap outta me of FB, but I never thought how much I'd miss writing.

Guess I'm, back?

:) ... Thanks for the time and for your patience with me.

And thanks a lot for the reading, too...